While doing the Nirahara Samyama I was able to see how much my awareness has increased. Before when unpleasant situations happen I would react automatically to those situations, like exploding in anger. I had no control over my emotions. During this process the awareness was so much that I can actually see the unpleasant situations happening outside of me and I was able to see the negative emotions rising inside me to respond to that situation. But as I was seeing the emotions rising up, instead of responding to the outer situation the emotions just came down and disappeared inside my system. I was left feeling peaceful and relaxed. Even my muscles did not tense up. I was able to see the whole episode as an onlooker.
Once I also experienced waves of bliss inside me for some time. I had so much freedom from my emotions while doing this process.
Abirami Paramanathan
Scarborough,Canada